Hello friends. To most i am know as Jules. To few i am know as Rusty. And to one i am know as the Wisest Companion. My other site has refused my longing for clarity in words...or am i just incapable..well...whatever the deal, i am here now. i know, isnt this exciting? Well...hmm..recap recap recap....well you know my title, know you must know me. I have been told i am a complicated person. (mad props to dr. silverman for that) i am hated by most and just dealt with by others. but enough a...

So, it is Thursday, November 27th 2003. And i am 11 days sober. but in a few hours, i shall be at 0 days...OHHH yeahhh...i love having no will power. but it is all good in the hood as they say because my parents will be making sure i dont get toooo drunk. but anyhoo....i went out last night. 1 up for the Julester. i went to the livingston mall with Atom, Steve, and Bhoomer. Fun was had by all. and today, today is Thanksgiving. We are giving thanks for being upper middle class white people w...

Hell there. i had so many things to write this week, but ever time i sat down to write....my ADD would kick in. And i would stare out my window. But some highlights i must recap! hair- its dyed again. its back to just my or....ummm A natural color. DAARRRkkk brown. it looks quite sexy. well thats what my mom says! hahhahaha im not to fond of it yet. OHHH YEAHHHHH i got permission from the parental units to miss A.A. last night and go out. imagine that. Jules out on a saturday living it up...

Today is snow. It is snowing quite a bit if i do say so. we more than i foot if my guestamations are precise. It is saturday, and tonight i dont have a.a. because of the snow...which is quite nice and quite disapointing because i have nothing to do besides sit and play and keep the lonley housewife company. Its my mitzvah i suppose.... The day of yester i hung out with Kaylan and Kari until Kari left. Kaylan's lover stopped by, who goes by the name of Emma if i do believe so. She seems qu...

Thursday is upon us. Ive welcomed it with open arms as for tomorrow is Friday. Very special day, as i have no a.a. meeting that i am attending! As of right now, i'm sitting at my computer in pjs listening to Bright Eyes. Yesterday i played at the dancing goat. It was good. Fine FIne. My parents are still out, and its 9:00 and im waiting for Jon to call so i may get some cigarettes. i have nothing left to add i suppose...i shant bore you no more. Happy living, Jules

.......so....... We got lots of catching up to get on with. Last weekend was FUN beyond all belief. Alcohol+Weed+Pete's pool table = me having lots of fun and making an ass out of myself, and getting introuble with steve But we're good for now. But friday, im gonna try and get drunk, but still be home at like 10. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA lets see how that goes.... cause Saturday i got class and another photo shoot so i dont really want to be dead and puking and fat. Speaking of which my diet is...

HeAdAcHE!!!!!!!!!!!!! but i took some valium...dont worry...ill be fine. School was tidious today. 3 test and lab. FUN?!?! you bet it was.. now, im headaching it up..holler...and talking to steve online cause i can not bear the phone. I need a nap and thank god i dont have homework...well i do...but im sure as hell not doing it. Good grief..the best oxymoron ever.. i just said that to steve, and i was thinking about it. Good Grief.. its beautiful is there anything as bad grief? re...

CITIZENS OF MY LIFE~ hello. as weird and twisted it may seem....i think it would be Hitler for a day...when he was alive and all....just to be like...so totally out there. and yeah...ill shut up now. i mean i am "jewish" and all OHHHHHH and shouts to my main man Jason "ULTIMATE FRISBEE RULES" Bergman. we wore almost the exact outfit to school today. Tan cordaroys or as adam k. would say cordagays\emoroys. but those, plaid button up shirt and black sweater over...we looked kickin...AND A...

howdy partners. this week is going by nicely. bascially cause i havent gone to school for the first two periods this whole week...but what are you gonna do about that?? ENJOY IT. ive been sleeping late as hell, which reminds me, mummy dearest is asleep so it is time to get more of my valuum out of my bottle which she has oh so carefully hidden....in her sock draw! hahahhahahhahhahah loser mom. but....all is well as long as i am medicated. monday-dont remember what i did......so i guess it w...

Hmm. haha where to begin. I've been bad. wait, no. i did something that wil\has and will most likely make me very happy for a long time. You noticed me. and thats what i want. i wanted someone to notice me, and it just so happened to be you, and im glad it was you. very glad. Since i've talked to you, everything is foggy and unclear, yet so clear and right in front of me and i now i'm aware that im the one that complicates things for myself. ME. noone else. ME. You scare me to happiness. and i...

Howdy partners. How are you on this fine evening? I'm doing okay, a bit tired...but im good. Today i went down to Belmar with my dad, and then all over then we ended up in red bank. It was quite lovely. The sun was shining, the breeze was breezing and my hangover was hangovering. Yes, i did get "wild" as all the youngins say...but hey, it was New Years Eve...and i was pretty good. Me, pete and beau were chilling at my house and then when fuckass and kari left, me and pete and beau left to go ...

Howdy partners. How are you on this fine evening? I'm doing okay, a bit tired...but im good. Today i went down to Belmar with my dad, and then all over then we ended up in red bank. It was quite lovely. The sun was shining, the breeze was breezing and my hangover was hangovering. Yes, i did get "wild" as all the youngins say...but hey, it was New Years Eve...and i was pretty good. Me, pete and beau were chilling at my house and then when fuckass and kari left, me and pete and beau left to go ...

Hello! Its been awhile cause ive been away. Reconnecting my roots with long beach island...its been a fucking trip and a half, and now..now im sick with a stomach virus on new years eve....well, i didnt tell my parents that i was puking so im still allowed out. but im not gonna drink or smoke or snort or anything, cause now. NOW im taking care of my body..... well atleast while i have a stomach virus. i hope its not the flu. but i dont feel all too shitty so i think im safe. But eh, everyt...

let me respond to a few comments. 1. Everyone is mad at me for stupid reasons and i use this place to vent, so of course its gonna sound fucking negitive. 2. i didnt think i speak jibba jabba. 3. im 16,and im not allowed to drink cause im supposed to be in rehab. but there are a few obsticles in the way of it. i do have a few...."issues" but hell, i have to work through them to get over it. and im trying hard as fuck. 4. Well thank you for hoping that everything gets easier and i know it d...

So hmmm.. i havent been up to much lately, some how, i got every fucking person in the world mad at me. but, i cant worry about that right now, i need a 2 minute break on that subject. Yesterday for Christmas eve, i went to kari's house and kaylan and ashlee came too. Kari's aunt had a party and i was supposed to leave at like 3:30\4. and the other two were supposed to leave at like 4:30\5. but of course my fucked up parents had to pick up before they got me so i like was sitting in the basem...